knowing God's will

while talking to labs the other night, i came across a realization - it's something i've been feeling, but haven't been paying much attention to. i feel that it's time for me to move on with my service. other people might interpret that as "stepping down" but to me, it is really moving on. i've been with singles for christ for more than six years. i've been a unit head for -- o my gosh! -- more than three years. ...this is my 4th year already?? no wonder i've been feeling the need to move on! gosh. i didn't know it was that long na pala. oh well, now i'm more convinced that really the time has come...

they say that God's will is always accompanied by peace. for the first time since i've thought about moving on (i've thought about it plenty!), this is the only time that i am at peace with it. i feel like i have come full circle in my service as a unit head. i've reached the point where i do things, not because i am a leader, but just because. i love my members, not because i am required to, but because i choose to. i realized that what i do is not tied to my nominal leadership position, it is tied to my relationship with God, and to my decision to serve Him and offer my life to Him.

one of the things that always bothered me before when thoughts of moving on come to me was the consequences of this decision. i feared that people who are "attached" to me might lose their courage in serving. they might think that i'm leaving them. they might think that i will not support them anymore. but now more than ever, i know that people in sfc already know me well enough to know that i will not leave them. that i will always support them and be with them, no matter what my position is. because i'm their friend. because i care.

the time has come because sfc peninsula has nurtured and produced leaders who can stand on their own. leaders who are tied not to people but to God who called them. humble servants who have the heart for God. now more than ever is the time that they should be developed! now more than ever is their time to lead God's people! and i know they will do a great job!

as for me, i know that i'm being called to something else. as to what, i don't know yet. i'm still discerning. but to whatever it is, i'm sure it will be challenging and will make me grow more as a person and as a Christian. i know that i will get to know my God more, and will fall in love with Him even more.

so now there's another reason why 2007 is my year! this is the culmination of my service as a unit head! wow! i'm just so glad to realize that! i'm looking forward to training leaders who will lead sfc san francisco/peninsula to greater heights next year and in the years to come! yahoo!! =)