they gave us a week to think about it, but by the time that the week's up, i haven't made my decision. i told didoy the truth, that i have not fully discerned about it yet. i dunno. it's just it seems like it's something out there, but i wasn't too sure if it's really for me. i needed dad's affirmative YES before i can make my decision.
and so in my prayers, i've been including it, and i didn't know how dad will tell me what His will is. though He has often proven himself creative in relating messages to me, i couldn't think of how He was going to do it.
but today i woke up, and i wanted to put up a pic i took of some wild flowers at hearst castle. the colors were so vivid!
as i looked at the pic, there was a verse in the bible that immediately came to mind: "look at the flowers, they don't do anything, and yet solomon in all his splendor was never clothed like one of them" - i know it's in matthew, but i couldn't figure out exactly which verse (i know it'd be somewhere in chapter 6) so i had to look it up online. got it. this is the whole verse:
25'That is why I am telling you not to worry about your life
and what you are to eat, nor about your body and what you are to wear.
Surely life is more than food, and the body more than clothing!
26Look at the birds in the sky. They do not sow or reap or gather into barns;
yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they are?
27Can any of you, however much you worry, add one single cubit to your span of life?
28And why worry about clothing? Think of the flowers growing in the fields;
they never have to work or spin; 29yet I assure you that
not even Solomon in all his royal robes was clothed like one of these.
30Now if that is how God clothes the wild flowers growing in the field
which are there today and thrown into the furnace tomorrow,
will he not much more look after you, you who have so little faith?
31So do not worry; do not say, "What are we to eat? What are we to drink?
What are we to wear?" 32It is the gentiles who set their hearts on all these things.
Your heavenly Father knows you need them all.
33Set your hearts on his kingdom first, and on God's saving justice,
and all these other things will be given you as well. 34So do not worry about tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'
wow. such a great teaching! ok, so i got up, took a shower, went to work. as usual i was praying while driving, and my general intention for today was for dad to enlighten me on my discernment. i thought about it a lot, and kinda felt that maybe he is really calling me for this, although i am not sure. and i wanted to be sure. so i was fervently asking him to reveal in my heart his will for me.
while praying the rosary with bo (cd), it occured to me that the glorious mysteries' reflections coincide with my prayer concerns! it talks about sacred mission, being sent, offering your life to God. wow, i thought. is this you, dad, speaking to me? do you really want me to take on the service? can you please confirm it in my heart today?
after crossing the toll plaza, i saw this black car with an interesting plate number - "YES LORD". at first i thought, wow, this person has guts! who would think of putting up YES LORD as their plate number? the only "religious" item i have in my car is the rosary that hangs on the rearview mirror.
then all of a sudden it hit me. how many times have i ever seen a 'YES LORD' plate number in my life? NEVER! YES LORD - that's the response He wanted from me! wahahaha! can he possibly be any clearer than this?
hay naku. si dad talaga. He's so funny. creative too. sayang i didn't get a pic of the car! aside from the fact that i was praying, i didn't have the presence of mind...i was staring at it with disbelief! hahaha.
so i guess it's a YES. =)
at least i was right in some of the things i wrote in the beginning of this year:
"as for me, i know that i'm being called to something else. as to what, i don't know yet. i'm still discerning. but to whatever it is, i'm sure it will be challenging and will make me grow more as a person and as a Christian. i know that i will get to know my God more, and will fall in love with Him even more.
so now there's another reason why 2007 is my year! this is the culmination of my service as a unit head! wow! i'm just so glad to realize that! "
i just didn't know that it was to be a chapter head. oh well. at least i know that it's going to be a wonderful adventure with Him.
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