i'm scared

dad,

i just want you to know that i'm scared. i know you called me as is where is. you called me exactly just as i am. and i believe that you will use all of me - strengths and weaknesses - to glorify Your name. but sometimes Lord it scares me.

i'm scared that i might not be able to live up to Your name. i see people listening to me, and i'm scared that there might be times that i might say my own message, not Yours. i see people following my stand, but i'm afraid that sometimes i state things out of my own opinion, not necessarily Yours. i'm scared because i feel that people believe and trust in me so much. i am so afraid that there will come a time that i do not so much as represent You as i do myself.

i'm so scared of me, of who i am. because i know only too well all my favorite sins, my imperfections, flaws, negative thoughts and actions. i'm scared that it might all go to my head and think that it's about me, when it never is.

Lord, protect me. Mama Mary, protect me. St. John Bosco, guide me. St. Joseph, pray that i may be like you, upright in God's eyes, someone who is true to his covenant to God.

Dad, please always be by my side and remind me of You, every single second of the day. Amen.